One year seems like such a long time, but in this little thing we call life, it can flash by before your eyes. As I am anticipating Ailey’s first birthday and reflecting on the last year, we are also awaiting my sister’s due date.
Last weekend I helped my sister finish up Sloane’s nursery, pack her hospital bag, and make a list of To Dos before due day. The entire time together, I couldn’t help but reflect on the familiarity of the situation. It seems like yesterday I was doing all the same tasks – preparing our home, myself, and the world for Ailey’s arrival.
I look at Ailey’s tiny shoes above and remember feeling excitement, anxiety, and an overwhelming rush of emotions at the thought of a new baby in our family. Now I look at Sloane’s tiny shoes and know my sister is feeling the exact same way. My sister, Lizzie, turns to me for advice on a daily basis, but she knows I don’t know it all. I can prepare her for the huge change that’s about to happen in her life only in the ways that I know, but the true Motherhood experience can’t be described.
There’s so much I can’t put into words, especially with all that I said yesterday, about my current thoughts in life. As Ailey’s first birthday and my sister’s daughter’s birth day quickly approach, I’m finding myself overwhelmed with an inexpressible feeling. There is a sadness as I am aware of time passing by so quickly, but a joy in the fact that Ailey is a healthy blossoming almost one year old. There’s gratitude for the gift of Motherhood and an excitement at the new life about to be born. So much to appreciate and so much to reflect upon at the end of each day.