Have you chose a word of the year yet? I never even knew this was a thing until 2019… A word for the year sets intention and acts as a reminder for you to work towards a goal. After much thought … and coming up thought-less, I decided I wasn’t going to pick a word myself, but rather let the word find me. While reading a book over the weekend I was hit with my word – CHOICE – the act of selection or making a decision when faced with two or more possibilities.
It’s ironic that my word for 2019 is “choice” because I’m pretty bad at making decisions. I’ve not always been indecisive, but I think I get worse with age. Ask my husband… I drive him crazy on a daily basis with my inability to make a choice about dinner or a tv show.
There is so much POWER in making a choice, as sometimes the smallest decisions can change your life forever. My first step in allowing “CHOICE” to be my guide for 2019 is reflecting on the choices I’ve made during my life and how they’ve brought me to the place I am in today. Both consciously and subconsciously, choices have been made that brought me to where I am today.
In college I made a huge decision to transfer to the University of Tennessee to be with my boyfriend. My family and friends were not too keen on my choice to go to a school 900 miles away for a boy, but I did it anyways. Had I not moved schools, there is a very good chance I wouldn’t be married to Brandon and the mama of our two little girls.
Every choice I’ve made in my life has had repercussions. The bad ones … I forget about those. Intentionally blocking them from my memory, but not before learning from my mistakes. The good ones… those should be celebrated.
Choices… the one we made to move to Maryland is how I became a teacher. Choices… the one I made to go off birth control and anxiety medication is how I became pregnant Annabelle. Choices… the one we made to move away from the finish line at the Boston Marathon is perhaps why we weren’t injured. Choices… the one I made when I finally told Brandon I wanted to move to Connecticut.
There is a fine line between choice and fate.
One one hand I believe our lives are not necessarily in our control, that God is in charge, with plans for each and every one of us. On the other hand, I believe it is my duty to be conscious when making choices. To think things through thoroughly, weigh the good and the bad, and question how it will affect me (or others). Instead of reacting throughout life – or at least during 2019 – I’m going to focus on being intentional with my choices.